Lots of things happened these past few months. I can't believe it has been two months since my last post.
Chandraya and I went to Missouri the end of June for the National Spotlight competition. She took Ruby(1st) for her solo and Emerald (2nd) for the group number. She has learned so much while watching the other perform. I can't believe how much she has grown with her dance skill in just the past 6 months. It is amazing.
Chandraya also learned today how to swim under water without holding her nose. That is quite an accomplishment. I am so proud of her. She is auditioning this week for Rising, but don't think she will make it. She is pretty young to be in that group yet. I just hope there will be new kids in Sparkling. The kids now are just down right mean to everyone. I would hate for her to be with a group like that.
Girls can be so mean. Even mine tends to have her moments. grrr..
Lila Mae is talking so well. She is the happiest child on earth. Says hi to everyone and playes with all kids. She is even nice to kids that are mean to her. She says thank you and please all the time. My favorite thing is, she tells me, "Mom, I am proud of you" how cute is that? lol
Zachery is at his dad's house right now. He is enjoying the summer. He wants so badly to make money but is to young to work.
Troy is having a blast with his church buddies from down south. Swimming, tennis or discing most everyday. How fun can that be.
I am so very proud of all my kids. They dont always do the right thing but try to stay on the right path.
My life seems to be a bit better. I am working on doing things for myself. I have spent most my life trying to please others. That tends to get me stepped on a LOT. I am putting my foot down and trying to take control.
Why let frustrations take over my life. I have a friend that I met only once but chat with her...she is one strong person. Her life is a mess right now but she still holds on and tries to be positive. That rocks. She is the strongest person I know and an inspiration.
I applied at Walgreens a month ago and since then have spoke with the manager but he said he may not beable to fit me in his schedule, but today when I walked in to get some prints done he asked if I still wanted a job. Woohoo..I said "Sure do!" He took me to the back and had me fill out some paperwork. This is so kewl because he also likes to take pictures...someone from my town likes to take pictures..wow! LOL.. I hope I get it because I could really use the cash for a few trips i want to take this summer. Could also use some more lenses.
It is rainy outside and I haven't taken a PaD yet. hmm..What should I take a picture of. This may take some thought.
I had a photoshoot yesterday with a dance group. These girls were fun to work with and the pictures turned out great. The mom's loved them.
Ok, off I go to take a picture.
Just some thoughts I thought I would throw at you all.
Are all men alike?
What do men want?
What does a woman want?
Do you think women are a lot like men?
Don't you think a relationship would be so much better if you thought about the other more then yourself?
Is it easy to forgive the other if they have done something really bad? Forgive..is that more or less forgetting and moving on or forgiving but not forgetting. hmmm..
Do you think find it hard to trust after being hurt? Is that all part of forgiving.
May 16th
My daughter had her first kindergarten program this morning. She stood in the back with her pink cowgirl hat and sang and bounced to the beat of the music. She had a smile on her face most the time. hehehe.
Songs they sang:
Color Farm, Farm Sounds, Alice the Camel, Baa, Baa Black Sheep, Six Little Ducks, and Hey May.
She has grown so much over the past year. I remember taking her to school for her first day. She was so excited. She was nervous before we left the house but once we got there she was all ready for me to go home. She didn't even want me there for lunch.
I cried so hard all that morning and afternoon. I felt like I had lost my baby. I soon got over it and seen that she really fit in. Making a ton of friends and also having a hard time with a few boys being mean to her..(of course we all know why they were..they had a crush on her) hehehe.. She is now friends with most everyone and loves chasing the boys around the school yard. There have been a few boys in her class and in 2nd grade that have asked her to marry them. She keeps telling them, NO! Good for her. I don't think the boys know her momma to well.
She is sooo ready for 1st grade. (soni is getting tears now thinking about her baby growing up)
She has learned to read very well and count to over a thousand. She writes little notes and can draw like no other. She gets mad because she can't color as well as the other kids, but we had a discussion on how kids are talented in different ways. Not everyone is the same and not everyone has the same gift. She has gift to draw and focus on detail while other don't have that that skill but color and paint very well. God has made each one of us differently and if we were all alike this world would be a boring place. She seriously rocks at drawing. I should post a few of her drawings.
She has a wonderful personality and smiles and laughs all the time. She has her mommy and daddy so proud of her.
Taking life one day at a time.
Losing track of the minutes that soon turn to hours and days.
Giving myself up to an unchanged world full of frustrations.
Standing alone in line about to fall.
Who will catch me before I hit the ground.
Not understanding why the world goes around but mine stands still.
Who am I kidding?
Where do I belong.
My eyes are hurting and my brain is aching.
Trouble shoots through me keeping me shaking.
Unchanged are my ways.
Sinful thoughts and doughtful fears.
No confidence to shed more tears.
Anger and pain so deep.
I sware other can feel it and hide, don't dare see it.
Standing alone in line about to fall.
Who will catch me before I hit the ground.
Not understanding why the world goes around but mine stands still.
by Sonja
All or nothing
It's sometimes life's between what's undecided
And all for nothing
Don't look down on me
like I dont know anything that I've been doing
You talk down to me
It's time you take a better look inside
Bow down to me
Taken your pride and stuff it down inside
Vows are ruined
Losing my faith, losing time
Better off you than me
I just can't stand another day when you're in my way
A long time brewing
It's time you kiss your ass goodbye
I'll never be the same
I'm moving back onto my ways
I'm looking for changes to better my way
Technique 22.00 21.00 23.00 Total 66.00.......high 75.00
Execution 21.75 21.00 23.50 Total 66.25.......high 75.00
Presentaion 22.00 22.00 24.00 Total 68.00.......high 75.00
Choreography 17.25 18.00 19.00 Total 54.25.......high 60.00
Difficulty 3.25 4.25 5.00 Total 12.50.......high 15.00
Total points overall ........ 267.00
Lots to practice on before Nationals to get her score higher. She did so good and I am very proud of what she has accomplished this year.
Technique 22.00 23.00 21.00- total 66.00
Execution 22.00 21.00 21.00- total 64.00
Presentation 22.00 23.00 21.00- total 66.00
Choreography 18.00 19.00 18.00- total 55.00
Difficulty 3.00 3.00 3.00- total 9.00
Total points overall-260.00
You know when you go through weeks, months and years with your family things tend to get stressful and you look at other families and think why are their lives so perfect, why can't we have a family life like that? And come to find out theirs lives are just as stressful.
Does my family life look perfect to others? Hmm... makes me wonder how we and others can hide it so well. You would think that going through each day would be easy..ok we have 12 or so hours to deal with, but we can't even get through that without something going wrong. Strange how life works.
Easter is in 2 days. I am now just boiling the eggs. Should be fun tomorrow. Lila Mae and Chandraya are perfect age to hunt and color eggs. I also still enjoy the fun. hehehe..
Off I go.
Happy Easter Everyone!
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the whole time too(this is hard for young ones). She lost her balance on one part but caught herself and kept going as nothing happened. She walked off stage and competed in her other 4 group dances. 
what she won. hehehe... At the end they give out 4 awards for the best dance performed. They called one of her friends Anthony for 4th place and some other dance from another company for 3rd and 2nd...(Chandraya's dance teacher was sitting next to and looked at me and crossed her fingers.) 
...." the crowd got silent and they played the song "Naked Mole Rap" She stood up and started jumping around and ran to the front of the stage and grabbed her BIG trophy(almost as big as her!) 
I was in tears 
watching her reaction and knowing that she deserved it. She worked so hard these past couple months. Sometimes getting frustrated but never giving up. 
It was a good weekend. 
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